If Only I Could

If only I could spend as much time on my studies as my mom does on gardening,I'll be the top student in Malaysia.

If only I could have a bigger portion of Choc Sundae from McDonald's,I always feel like having more after finishing one.

If only I could I have my sister's out-of-this-worldly high metabolism to burn the Choc Sundae off my belly.

If only I could revamp the whole education system of Malaysia,there's this saying that God doesn't create stupid people but our education system does.

If only I could get a full refund for my extra prom ticket,I totally hate having to look for a prom partner under such dire circumstances.

If only I could have another plate of the Nasi Goreng Pattay I had this morning,freaking starved.

If only I could persuade Wendy to stop teasing my hairless legs for it's really starting to hurt my ego(just a lil.....okok...maybe a lil more than that)

If only I could stay in school forever,I'm gonna miss breaking school rules and the canteen's Nasi Pedas.

If only I could put on a pair of shades without looking like a poser,I would spend all my savings on a Ray-Ban(savings?who are you kidding Ian)

If only I could have 25 hours per day,I want to sleep more.

If only I could tear that thick layer of make-up from Asmahan's face and have a look at how she really looks like.

If only I could unlock that drawer(I misplaced the keys) where I kept all my personal stuffs in,it contains everything I intend to hide from my parents from Form 1-5.

If only I could withstand my mom's nagging.I can't.That's why I've got to go.

Bruce crying?The only specialty from Armaggedon

Great!England are back on track.It's halftime for the crunch World Cup 2006 qualifying game and England been's dominating the match(though they've only got a Frank Lampard's penalty to show)the way a true World Cup contender would.

"I'll go pee first,"my father blurted out right after the ref blew the halftime whistle and quite frankly I think he's been holding since the very start of the match(my dad's such sucker for this lil game called football).Oh goodie...I get to surf the waves of channels on Astro again without my dad around,it annoys the hell out of him everytime I do.

First stop:MTV's showing 5o cents' video.*puke*that big fat over buffed maggots-ise choc of a rapper really irks me.

Second stop:Star Movie's showing Armaggedon and it's nearing the end.*Eyes shimmers with bright light of glorious hope*It's one of my favourite scenes!

Armaggedon ain't the really anywhere near to being a decent movie.The whole movie oozes an insurmountable aura of an B grade action flick(think Steven Seagal),not the biggest surprise considering that's it's a production of Jerry Bruckheimer.Driven by a plot that was as thin as a middle aged man's locks,it would be a Oktoberfest of boredom for serious movie critics but thankfully I ain't one.

I'm a simple man who loves simple stuff and this movie suited me just fine with its typically loud action scenes and the typically stunning lead actress(Liv Tyler...*droolz*).However,the one thing that really mesmerized me about this movie was the final scene where Harry(which happens to be I-don't-have-bulging-muscles-but-I'm-a-action-star Bruce Willis)had to stay on the earth bound meteor to trigger the bomb manually.If you haven't watch this movie then you might wanna catch it but I gotta warn you,it's ordinary at best though the final scene was really really sweet and touching(NO IAN YOU'RE NOT GOING TO CRY).

Haha..i'm sure most people would one day chance upon a situation where they would need to make sacrifices for someone else's sake.The dare to be great opportunity where their very own decision could alter a person's fate or simply rob the person of the bliss he/she deserves.Sad to say that all my life I've been making countless woeful decisions(like enrolling myself for the science stream though I was fully aware of the fact that I'm a noob when it comes to science and maths).Thank God though for I think those mistakes killed my future more than it does to others.

Alrite fellas...gotta hit the sack soon(the morning jog around ss18 with Cy Eu is taking its toll).

Song that best describes my feeling today:Savage Garden's 'The Lover After Me'.

A beautiful song with beautiful lyrics.

Savage Garden

I've always thought that Savage Garden is such an inappropriate name for a band that consist of Darren Hayes and Daniel Jones,they looked and sing typically like SNAGs(sensitive new age guy).As most people would agree,I'm a biggest sucker for emo songs,stuffs that would conjure a sobfest.Here's a song I downloaded after I read Melody Song's blog(which is really really great,one of the best if not the best i've read).I find the words of this song really beautiful,just wanna share it with you guys(though my fellow blogger Sue Anne says that she doesn't see anything in it):)

I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called
but Someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend
That you've forgiven me

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognise this place
The picture frames have changed
And so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

Springtime in the city
Always such a relief from winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold if you know what I mean
Everyone's got an agenda
Don't stop keep that chin up you'll be alright
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognise this place
The picture frames have changed
And so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the price
I'm still paying for it every day

So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognise this place
The picture frames have changed
And so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again
I see your face
I see your face

Gulfed by Fate

Well...I'm not really mentally and physically well enough to blog but here I am blogging admist the relentless bombardments of my mom's nagging.

Another hour or so and it'll be the dawn of a very significant date to me,6th.It's very much bittersweet I guess...it could've been the eight month of an ceaseless supply of bliss.I still get mixed feelings and my palms still sweat the way it did when I first held her hands every single time I see her.Then again,it's a dead fact that I don't feel the same for her
anymore...nowadays..my feelings are blended with the acceptance of the void she left.Living in denial has been a norm for me during the past couple of months,numbing myself by the belief that I could wipe her out of my life.It banged me so hard when I realised that it's virtually impossible to wipe someone of your life,more so when it comes to someone who used to mean the world to you and maybe..still does.Move on with grace and bliss she has achieved and that's all I ask of you God.Thanks Father.

A bizzare news hit my family today.One of my family's really close friend passed away on Monday and the story doesn't end here(sadly...it really should have).Well...his family chose to cremate his body in Ipoh.Cruel fate won this neverending chess game of life and death again.On their way to sending his corpse to Ipoh,the deceased's wife suffered a heart attack and passed away soon after.To the family,the man's death was imminent as he had been diagnosed with a host of health problems but the lady's death really stunned them.I really pity the their daughter...to lose your aging and ill parent is predictable but still saddening.To lose both your parents simultaneously is simply disastrous.

I really got to go...I'm sick,tired,hungry,nagged and beat.Ciaoz